March 25, 2010

Journal #31: What is your passion?

1. My passion would be to help others, whether its a family member or friend.

2. My experiences with helping others would be when I was young and help my grandma with her cooking and planting of flowers. She loved making oatmeal and lumpia for me and my brother and she would always ask me to help her. I would jump up and say yes. When she used to live with us she had some plants in the back that she cared and I would always help her out by watering it whenever she was busy.

3. I would like to take helping others till the day I die. I want to stretch this passion so that everyone could have a helping hand in mind. If no one has that helping person they would feel lonesome and I wouldn't want that to happen.

March 9, 2010

This I Believe - Draft

There are phrases that's known for life, "Life is like a rollercoaster" and "Live life to the fullest because you will never know what will happen the next day". If you really think about it, its true. Life can't just be in a straight line where it's dull and boring. And there are unexpected things that happen to you or someone you know and love. It has its ups and downs which brings out the definition of life. I had my ups and downs and an unexpected thing that happened in my life which was aunty passing away last year January.

It was a Saturday afternoon, and like any other Saturday I would be out cruising with my friends, but instead I went to see my aunty in the hospital. She looked the same in the ICU at the Hawaii Medical Center with the blessed rosary still tied to her bed, her swollen body lying, tubes sticking in her to keep her heart beating, and the monitor showing how fast or slow her heart rate was. We hoped and prayed that she will soon get better but evidently it didn't help. That night I slept over my cousins' house and played the XBox and Wii until we received a call from the hospital saying her condition worsened. The nurse told us we had to go to the hospital right immediately. We rushed to get into the cars; closed all the windows, turned off the lights or whatever was plugged in, and locked the doors and gate. We tried to hurry as fast and safe and quickly as possible. While driving there I could feel fear crawling though my spine telling me to get ready for whatever news they needed to tell us. My cousin finally drove through the entrance scanning the parking lot for an open slot and I realized nothing would be the same if she was gone. I had to stop thinking negatives and more positives.

As I got out and go straight into the elevators, I prayed and prayed and prayed. I stepped out of the elevator with my family and felt a cold breeze of horridness blowing right through me. Every step I took I thought about how my aunty would look like now, every breathe I take I pray my auntie could breathe as normal as can be, and every heart beat I have I hope her heart will be as normal as mine. While waiting for the nurse, I can see the agony and fear in my family's eyes. The nurse finally walked in and we just all looked at her. She said, "We tried the best we could but Ms. Madriaga's heart suddenly stopped.... I am sorry for your loss." I was shocked, speechless, terrified and any other expression there was that could relate to the news I heard through my little ears. We walked into her room where she laid the last time we saw her; tubes still stuck in her and the rosary tied on the rail of the bed. The nurse left us alone for our privacy and we just gushed out crying. I couldn't believe my eyes, seeing her lie on the bed lifeless.

After that night, the tragedy that I have went through made me realize to live life to the fullest because you'll never know what will happen tomorrow or next week or next month. What happened to my aunty was sudden. First thing you know she was okay and next thing she's lying on a bed with tubes and machines to help her get better. I know my aunty is watching over me and wants me to have the best of my life. And this is what I believe.

March 1, 2010

Journal #30: This I Believe - Brainstorm

I believe....

-Life is like a roller coaster, it has its ups and downs. It can never be in a straight line because something will come by and change that whether its good or bad.

-Things unexpectedly happen to you in life, whether you like it or not. Example: death of a family member.

-Working hard for something will get you what you really want.